Back after a thousand years, scribbling my pad! Was going through the earlier posts and just felt like writing something again. Last one and a half year has been really different. Full of events that changed my work life, personal life, social life.. blabla.... Saw my company owners run away overnight, changed jobs, met a special someone (well actually met that someone way before, the 'special' was added later), worked with some fine people, made them friends, parted with many "jani" friends by a long long distance, met a spineless horrible SOB and wish to get as far away as possible from the person, many dreams blossomed and many hopes shattered..and many more things.
The biggest change that came during this considerably not-so-long time is the exponential increase in cynicism and disbelief. I know that the surroundings are to be blamed for this change, but really these things were around before also but never affected the basic nature of my thinking. Probably, inspecting the surroundings closely changed this attitude of mine.
I believe that a company of good people around you is one thing that really matters to mold the way of thinking professionally and personally. The moment good people start disappearing, and crappy ones hover around, it drastically changes the attitude towards everything, even the daily work. It raises questions about the very existence of yours in that place, and its a slippery slope afterwards.
I really thought that personal and professional lives can be kept isolated from each other, but that is actually not true. The cynicism in one leaps high many times to cross the threshold to engender frustration in the other very soon, and once it crosses, it stays. As someone says to me intermittently, "It has become your habit". Probably it actually has. I have this strange idea, that the chasm of sarcasm keeps you isolated from a breakdown :).
But whatever turns the life is taking, I am glad that things are still better than how they could be. The soup boy has found a special constant, who bolsters his roots throughout. And my disbelief in things is pleasingly falsified everyday to some extent.
May be every 25 year old thinks this way after coming closer to reality, and if not, then i don't deny that i am special ;)
The biggest change that came during this considerably not-so-long time is the exponential increase in cynicism and disbelief. I know that the surroundings are to be blamed for this change, but really these things were around before also but never affected the basic nature of my thinking. Probably, inspecting the surroundings closely changed this attitude of mine.
I believe that a company of good people around you is one thing that really matters to mold the way of thinking professionally and personally. The moment good people start disappearing, and crappy ones hover around, it drastically changes the attitude towards everything, even the daily work. It raises questions about the very existence of yours in that place, and its a slippery slope afterwards.
I really thought that personal and professional lives can be kept isolated from each other, but that is actually not true. The cynicism in one leaps high many times to cross the threshold to engender frustration in the other very soon, and once it crosses, it stays. As someone says to me intermittently, "It has become your habit". Probably it actually has. I have this strange idea, that the chasm of sarcasm keeps you isolated from a breakdown :).
But whatever turns the life is taking, I am glad that things are still better than how they could be. The soup boy has found a special constant, who bolsters his roots throughout. And my disbelief in things is pleasingly falsified everyday to some extent.
May be every 25 year old thinks this way after coming closer to reality, and if not, then i don't deny that i am special ;)
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